Arhh! It's May 7th already!! lotsa things happened yesterday! while i was on the shuttle bus to Caulfield campus, a familiar song was played.....whoaaa! lotsa memories floated into my mind at once! i was initially reading my notes but after the first line of the song was sung, i just couldn't concentrate much longer!

"Packing up the dreams God planted..." oh man!!! my favourite song....

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
Cos the welcome will not end
For it's hard to let you go
But in the Father's Hands we know
That a lifetime is not too long....
To live as friends

this song brings back memories...of the old old past...of times when friends part at airports and we often cry as we sung this song. oh yes, friends are forever...and it's when we are so close so close that it's time for them to go. i was also once again reminded of my own departure from the Changi Airport too...still remember, 17th Feb 2002...of how i had to leave that land i called 'home'...leave the memories behind and to come over here to start a new page of my life. time flies, isn't it? so many things have happened over time....people change...i change too! but friends are still friends forever, if the Lord's the Lord of them. i trust that God is watching over every single friend of mine...and i know that distance does not keep us apart.

And just yesterday, i met new friends too. i'm sure the Lord has His plans that i gota know willie as my project mate. even though we came together because of this proj, but through our sharing over meals, we are drawn closer. i know that she really loves God alot and that's what makes us closer still. we worked on our project till 11pm at the library last night...and for once, i came back so late from the library! her bf was so nice to send me back last night and it was fun to know willie's group of God-fearing friends. sometimes i just feel envious of her...i just wished i'm that close to my church friends....i just wished i could study, have fun and serve God together with a bunch of God-fearing people. that's why, sometimes i just long for home; where i feel belong....

my mom was on the other hand, worried for me. she called and asked my hsemates where i was and they weren't sure as well~ when i finally got home, they all felt relieved! and mom asked me whether if i wana go back this june.....whoa! what a time to ask me this question. yeah, i really want to....especially when my bf is sick, i really wana go back and see how he is, spend time with him, especially when our bdays are both in june....and really, i want to spend time with my family. *tempting!* it's a dilemma~ but coming back to think about it, it's just for 1 month...a waste of money to fly home. i promised myself once that i won't go back till end of this year because i really want to enjoy what i have at present. even though the winter here is a bit irritating...but it's my final chance to go to the snow! sus, bron and james have great camping plans in mind and i wished to spend time with them too....well, *dilemma* would someone please help me out?