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Monday, April 30, 2007

independence
today i sat down wondering what that word really means. im reminded of how many friends used to comment that gracie's a strong woman (in chinese, they call me: 刚强). really? how often do i rely on emotional pillars for support? how many occasions do i need someone to be by my side? there are times when i wish im just like a fragile flower in a greenhouse, needing tender loving care, warmth from sunshine and rain. perhaps gracie has been through too much of pain before, that's why it has made her strong as she is today.

i rejoice in being who i am, because what defines me constitutes a big portion of my past. love to be a 'sunshine' gracie...and i wish i could stay as sunshine always. when thunderstorms come my way, then gracie would be looking for a hiding place for shelter. in times like these, would little flower gracie find her anchor? recently, i told clement: 'let's learn to smile at the storms :)!' he replied, 'the storms laughed at me!' well, his pessimistic reply made me wonder: why many times we feel so helpless in times of need? shouldn't we cast all our cares upon Jesus? "with Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm!"- maybe it is time to sing this song again!

gracie is learning today, how to be strong once again. maybe she's been in the greenhouse for too long. it is time for her to stand up on her own. and much recently, i found joy in spending time in solitude and self discovery. i spent time doing personal grooming, shopping, cooking and reading. great therapy i must say :) perhaps in solitude, i found the real gracie within -her strengths, her weaknesses, her wants and her fears. if one day, you do see the real gracie, you should feel glad that she's able to open her world to you. not everyone gets to see the complete her! ;)


~gracie left a note at 5:09 pm

Thursday, April 26, 2007


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Cheesecake Does Wonders
the gloomy weather has been making everyone at office edgy and sick. it is in the air. moodiness. what brought sunshine to the day was when KK came along to office saying, 'hey. i know secretaries day's over yesterday, but i brought cheesecake for you guys to celebrate.' "much appreciated :)" i said with a smile, when KK brought the slice of cake and fork right up to me.

hmm. slurp. satisfied.

smiles returned.


~gracie left a note at 5:47 pm

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

I Have No Appetite!
is it the weather?
it is lunch time now.
went down to canteen.
looked at the dishes.
i feel sick.
spinning headache.
nauseus.
sleepy.

is gracie sick? yes, maybe.

~gracie left a note at 1:45 pm

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

When You Say Nothing At All
Sung By Ronan Keating

Was just listening to this song on my ipod. *Not working ar?! Erm. (shy away.) Just thought the lyrics reminded me of what i wrote just now about [smiles]. Super old song, but ~ oh well.

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Old Mr. Webster could never define
What's being said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

~gracie left a note at 4:53 pm



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Don't Be Afraid to Smile!
has anyone told you that you look sweetest when you smile? real smiles communicate hope and joy. smiles that come right from the heart. smiles that encourage you to move on.

very often, we shy away from showing our true self. we are afraid to show our own faults and weaknesses. we shield ourselves from criticisms, pain and hurts. we wana protect ourselves from being called 'the ugly', 'the evil one'. we are afraid to open our hearts to embrace the ugly, the outcasts and more often than not, the uncertainties in life. we dare not smile, because we are always doubtful of the permanence of good moments.

sometimes we forget that the greatest joy is found in contentment. do you look at a half filled cup of water and thank God that you have water to drink? or do you complain that your cup is half empty? we forget to appreciate the little things we have around us. nature. family. good relationships.

contentment or complaint? two distinctive words. your choice today, really. im learning today, how to smile with contentment in my heart.

you..?


~gracie left a note at 1:50 pm

Monday, April 23, 2007

you are my strength when i m weak
you are the treasure that i seek
you are my all in all

seeking you as a precious jewel
Lord to give up i'd be a fool
you are my all in all

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Keep a Joyful Music In Your Heart
the song lyrics came to mind this am as i was on my way to school. my ipod ran out of batt and i was caught in an uncomfortable position, trying to balance on my heels in the wobbling crowded bus. school has started today and it is just not fun to squeeze in a bus with everyone else. monday blues. morning blues too. and you know how everyone looks seemingly in their dazy worlds on mondays. me too, started daydreaming and humming songs in my heart.

perhaps this song really speaks a lot to my heart today. i need strength. i need encouragement. maybe i've been running away from the precious jewel. it is re-filling the emptiness of my heart and making Him my rightful All in All. priorities have been messy lately. i've grown to realise it is when you lose sight of Him, that all things become haywired.

very often, i find myself in pits of confusion, distress and uncertainties of the future. worry and jadedness reign in my heart. perhaps it is time to pause and reconsider my goals in life. when im ready, to pick up my pieces and run for my dreams. it is when we are certain of what we are running for, that we will really run with all our might. run with no regrets. run with no fears.

sometimes music brings encouragement to the heart. and im sure it does for me today!


~gracie left a note at 9:22 am

Friday, April 20, 2007



My Berries Craving
its season is over now.
bad time to have such strong cravings for them.
i feel like having strawberry yoghurt..yumm
or perhaps cherry garcia from ben and jerrys..?
is cranberry juice a leaner option? [faraway from fats!]
a fruit salad with loads of strawberrrriesss..?
strawberries aren't as cheap as those in aussieland.
maybe a grocery shopping trip to Cold Storage would do the trick!
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time for berries therapy!


~gracie left a note at 2:31 pm


Are you a people pleaser?
Life is all about give and take and you're doing all the giving, while the people around you take advantage! You seem to have fallen off your own list of priorities. A dangerous situation when you consider that we only have one life to live. You have obviously been blessed with a strong desire to please, something that will earn you a great many friends. However, you appear to be lacking a few essential tools for dealing with conflict. No stranger to sacrifice or compromise, you're prepared to bend over backwards in order to avoid a dispute. Unfortunately there will always be times when you will either have to compromise yourself, or the people close to you. You obviously care about your friends, and we're all for this, but real friends will understand that sometimes you have to put yourself first. It's a sad fact that someone who is always there to lend support no matter what, is often overlooked and neglected. By placing more respect in yourself, you will gain more respect from others and probably find that they're more likely to help you out when you need it. After all, if you're not going to look out for number one, who will?


~gracie left a note at 10:26 am

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Short Funnies at Meetings
this week's been a bliss and a breaze. maybe because all my meetings are over, all my minutes are completed and approved, all my fever and flu died-ed and all my pain gone! what made life a little more interesting were the jokes the lecturers cracked during formal meetings. sometimes you just need some funnies to get by your busy work day.


~gracie left a note at 2:54 pm


Singapore International Film Fest Starts Today...
to all arty farties out there, don't miss the good award winning films releasing today till end of the month. you can watch a variety of films done by international directors at National Museum (NM) and Lido. i was reminded of SIFF as i cleared my intray this am. i always drag my feet to my intray, bcos i know more work is waiting for me. as i reluctantly ploughed through the stack of approvals and follow-up items, my eyes sparkled when i saw the brochure created by NM. well, usually i won't be the least bothered or interested in NM's stuff, but not for this one. the title caught me: Animated Films from Germany & 40 Years of German Art Video. hmm, video. anyway, surfed SIFF's website and found a few great short films and animation works worth the watch. check it out @ http://www.filmfest.org.sg/index.php



~gracie left a note at 10:54 am

Sunday, April 15, 2007


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My Fishy Journey
what can you do at 2am in the morning? for the night owls out there, you would probably have lotsa ideas - clubbing, msning or hanging out somewhere? it is always rare to know that gracie is still up at 2am, but i truly had a great time over weekend. adr drove me to the various fishing spots in sg, places which i've never been or known before. he smiled cunningly as he drove through the 'jungles' in lim chu kang (God knows where?), and threatened that he's selling me off and leaving me at a deserted corner of singapore. i screamed in fear but i knew fully well that i'll be safe :)

after the fishing spots, we continued our fishy journey to senoko fishery port. well, adr and r, the 2 prawn experts i went with, had gone down to buy fresh BIG prawns at rather cheeeap price for tonite's bbq. and for me, i tagged along because i wana see fish! i sound like an idiot here. it is as if i have never seen fish in my entire life. but really, when i stepped into that fish port, man! i'm just amazed by the variety, the colours, the size and shapes of the fish at the port. i've never seen so many fish in my life! not even at a wet market! at 2am, fish mongers were busy sorting out their fish according to the sizes. prawns too, were divided into different crates, depending on their quality and sizes. i'm surprised to see a huge fishing community there, especially at that late hour. many have gone there with their shopping baskets just to purchase the freshest fish at bargained price.

next time, if u can't sleep at night and really wana go somewhere, try checking out senoko fishery port! it is an interesting place to go...but remember to wear slippers with good grip and clothes which you are about to throw into laundry, cos' you smell like fish when you leave the port! ;)



~gracie left a note at 9:44 pm

Tuesday, April 10, 2007


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grandpa. grandma
i miss them. i miss grandpa's lame jokes. i long to taste the fried chicken wings grandma used to prepare every week. since their passing, i've not forgotten those moments. perhaps most of my childhood years were spent running around their little 3-room apartment, i grew up knowing grandparents' love. i'd say i'm most fortunate, to have spent those years with them and have developed such close bonds with them.

went down to Mount Vernon Columbarium last saturday to present flowers, in remembrance of them. for more than 10 years, the memory of their faces has always been vague in my mind. yes, i do dream of them. i do miss them. yet, as i went closer to behold their faces once again, somehow sweet memories returned.

i remembered how grandpa used to fetch me from school and how grandma would bring me to the wet market to buy groceries. and as i listened to their love story, i realised how simple love could be. love really, isn't about creating romantic moments all the time. it is about giving and about holding each other's hands through the journey of life.

grandpa's a shanghainese. grandma's a cantonese. if you have heard the languages, you would know how different they sound. how did they manage to live together, love each other and be together all their lives? grandpa learnt grandma's language over the years. maybe they have, in one way or another, influenced my values and my outlook in life. definitely, i'll wana spend my lifetime with the one who's witty like grandpa and who's loving like grandma.


~gracie left a note at 9:41 am

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Ben and Jerrys Free Cone Announcement!



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Tuesday, April 03, 2007

"Do Not Disturb"
Kelvin Tong's Do Not Disturb Drama Series premiered last evening on Arts Central 10pm. shot in HD format and like a mini art-house film, this nine part drama explores into the realities of broken hearts and broken marriages in Singapore. much humour and all storylines revolve around the budget hotel room. even though there is mature content in the drama, i felt that the sensitivities have been managed appropriately. as i found out more about the cast and crew behind this drama project, i saw very familiar names :) worked with the scriptwriter before and i believe and i know why this is a good production.

well i guess local productions have progressed to tread new territories over time. it isn't about the sleaziness of the show that's appealing. it is the way the project team put together an entertaining drama that revealed real underlying socially undiscussed taboo issues that makes it worth watching and worth applauding. adr and i sat down to watch it together last night. we had a great time laughing :)

~gracie left a note at 4:46 pm