disillusioned i sat in a HQ meeting today. i got pretty inspired by all the big ra-ra discussed and next year's big plans and events and what not next year. i know it's gona be really exciting. media publicity. big time hoo-ha. i'd say, a big boom time. what made me feel a lil' disheartened was i think im never gona be part of it. boo.
to start with, my name was never in the HQ database. and with all the major events happening, i know as much as i would like to be involved in them, im guessing my boss wouldn't release me to HQ. ah - sad.
sometimes i truly wonder, what do i wana do with my life? where am i going? corporate comms?while many would say i've just merely started, i don't seem to see my way around things. if you ask me, i won't say i would look back in history and regret any decision i have made so far, because every step in life is a learning process isn't it?
i hope to see some light. it seems im hitting dead end next year. we will see. God will lead.
~gracie left a note at 4:46 pm
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
tower bridge, london
London, here i come! in about a month's time, i'll breathe UK air. it will be my first time to Europe. also my very first time flying so many miles all alone. i'd say, it's big adventure to me. and yes, i'll be meeting my loved one :)
i heard that London has started snowing... and it means xmas is near! :) in 34 days time! woohoo. i suppose i'll be able to see that huge christmas tree at Harrods and the christmas lights in London city when i arrive. yay.
im sorry peeps, i've got a full baggage already! no more stuff!! :p and cos i won't be spending a lot of time shopping nor in london, i may not have the opportunity to buy whatever you need to buy. so far, i've already gotten some fred perry requests! and if this goes on, i might need a truck when i return from the UK!! hur.
but i do promise i'll upload photos of europe when i return! not sure if i would have enough memory cards to last me through the trip - but yeah, i will!!
~gracie left a note at 8:55 pm
Friday, November 16, 2007
Dental visit i hated dental visits. the childhood fears of the drills, the tooth extraction and pain always send shrill chills down my spine. and i've been procrastinating the visit for the longest time. i'd come up with all sorts of nonsensical excuses just to avoid the visit - the clinic's too far... there isn't any slots available... i don't want to go alone... the dental fees are too exorbitant... dental claims is too troublesome... and the list of excuses can go on and on.
but just this week, my jaw decided that it had enough of me and my unconscious stress clenches. my jaw felt so sore that i couldn't eat my meals properly. and inevitably, i lost appetite and yeah, lost weight too. it wasn't something to rejoice over. left with no choice, i knew i had to see the dentist anyhows.
i called up the clinic to make an appointment. every step to the clinic was tough. i remembered how i always needed an accompany whenever i knew i was going to see the dentist in the past. that day, i had to go alone. *sharks.
as it turned out, it was a painless process. i had my teeth polished sparkling clean. and the dentist was pretty nice to crack a little joke here and there... and before i knew it, i could leave the clinic. i walked out of the clinic feeling good.
i was a brave girl that day :)
~gracie left a note at 10:35 am
Monday, November 12, 2007
dearest soulmate thank you for letting me know today how important i've been in your life. i never thought a simple 'how are you?' would make a difference to you. sometimes little acts of love will just be sufficient to make someone else's day bright. don't hide your sorrows and feel alone, because there is always someone out there who cares for you. open your heart, and you'll find angels spreading their wings to comfort you. i hope you feel better after today, knowing that you can always count on me... always.
love from miss sunshine
~gracie left a note at 10:50 pm
Sunday, November 11, 2007
how do you know if your partner is 'the one'? this was one of the interesting questions that came out of facebook. im sure for those who are in a relationship, this would be one of the things you consider very carefully before you jump into the big thing called marriage. it being a lifelong commitment, everyone wants to make the right decision for themselves. and of course, would love if the story ends with: 'and they lived happily ever after.'
sometimes it gets really tiring, when you constantly wonder if you're really the one for him, or perhaps if he is the one for you. you'll start to consider the few things: how much do you know him? how comfortable are you with him? how certain are you that his heart won't change in the years to come? and the answers sometimes get tangled up together and you find yourself pretty confused at the end of it all.
i believe that there isn't really the right one, or the one - because if you continuously seek for the one, or wait for the perfect one to come, there would never be one. for the fickle minded, the grass is always greener over the other side. is there always a better one out there? really? but not until you give up searching, and decide with your heart, mind and soul to settle down do you truly feel contented.
have you found the one?
cherish.
~gracie left a note at 6:13 pm
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
pic above: taken by shan
sentosa heat
it's been raining cats and dogs for many days. strangely enough, when the weather forecast it was going to thunderstorm at most parts of singapore, the sun was bright and hot that day! i had bad sunburns all over - especially my feet.
on most days, i really love the sun. i guess i had an overdose that day. my body wasnt feeling right and i felt feverish after an entire day of heat. lack of h2o made it worst. if you add a week of lethargy and the vigorous energy drain, that amounts to more longing for the bed and nothing else.
it was nice having shan and asto around. they became 'my family' that day. and even though we didn't do much, i'm glad we spent almost a full day just hanging out under the sun. i realised thru that day, shan loves sentosa whilst asto doesn't like the sun... and gracie likes both sentosa and the sun!!! :)
~gracie left a note at 9:27 pm
Monday, November 05, 2007
Home Theatre System: LG T3602SE if you want a simple home theatre system that does not take up too much space, the LH T3602SE is the system for you. despite being relatively small size, it offers excellent sound quality and features, as well as a great source of entertainment for you and your family.
features: 5.1 Channel 300W Home Theatre System XTS Pro Full Digital Amplifier DVD, VCD, SVCD, CD/R/RW, MP3, WMA, JPEG Dolby Digital, DTS, Dolby Pro-Logic I&II Dual Progressive Scan S-Video/Composite/Component/Optical USB Plus Microphone inputs for Karaoke
retail price: $299, now selling at S$250
let me know you'd be interested to purchase it from me. brand new!
~gracie left a note at 4:25 pm
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Libera - Sanctus i first heard their version of their song based on canon in d played from the CD Shop, while i was having coffee at paragon. today, i went back to CD Shop, hoping to find the particular cd again. and yes, they played the same song. and immediately, i bought the album.
i came back and started listening to the songs in the cd... and i simply love this particular song. i surfed the website to look for Libera, the vocal group who sang that song Sanctus - and i realised it's a UK boys group. find out more: http://www.libera.org.uk/index.htm i really loved this version of pachebel's canon in d: would love to have it played for my own wedding march! ha. sweet.
The boys who make up the vocal band Libera have been described as “normal” and “ordinary”. However, as their recordings and performances demonstrate, the music they produce is truly extraordinary. With shimmering, mystical chords and ecstatic harmonies, they are unlike any other group you have ever heard. At times plaintive, at others climactic and transcendent. These are truly sounds to lift the soul. Celestial sounds for a new time.
~gracie left a note at 10:21 pm
Friday, November 02, 2007
"Because by changing that person, it makes him/her less of the person whom you have fallen in love with from the start."
couplehood i was reading kiat's recent blog entry and i'm 'wow-ed' at his statement above. i can't agree with him more. it's so easy to find imperfection in another special someone. it's so human to mind the growing fats, the bad habits, the weird temper, the dark side. yet, when you start to recall how and why you started the journey of togetherness, you would realise that you fell in love and accepted who he or she is right from the very start.
some people may say, love is blind. blindness is always deemed as the reason when we ask ourselves, if we know this person is so hard to live with, then why fall in love in the first place? i'd argue that love is indeed blind - but loving someone means overlooking someone's flaws. and because you no longer live a life of your own, there's a lot more 'us' to take care of, instead of the 'you-s' and 'me-s'. sometimes quarrels are inevitable, because there's a constant struggle of demanding what 'i-want', rather than what 'we want'. and when our focus and attention becomes individualistic, there's a greater tendancy to point finger at the other and demand the other partner to change.
im learning too. it's a journey of discovery for me. as much as i wish i could be the most perfect woman in the world, the matter of fact is, i am not. and many a times, as i look at the women around me, i feel so small. i dont think i'm more perfect, or more desirable or more unique. since i would love others to accept the way i am, then i'd have to learn to accept the way others are.
Fair? yes.
if you can't learn the lesson of loving someone else, then you shouldn't be in love.
~gracie left a note at 10:01 pm
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gracie
activities: beach-ing, swimming, camping
interests: music, history
birthday: 18 june
home sweet home: singapore
pic above: taken by shan 