Tuesday, September 25, 2007
weekend blissi haven't had time to blog about my long weekend. it was good to spend it with a company of good friends. thanks for all the calls and smses some of you sent. and i know, with friends like you to hang around with, time flies faster.
friday was spent with jc friends. adrian drove us to sentosa in his new car. i didn't realise that it was his new car, as everything looked the same as his old one. blur me. it took me 30minutes to sit in there and realised, hey! you changed your car from a 2-door to a 4-door!! -.- yes, im slow in noticing such details. anyway, we all had fun chilling out at Kilometre-8, a western food restaurant. being there reminds me of the quiet serene krabi beach i went to last year... it was just a great place to have heart to heart talks. we all shared about weddings, marriage, choosing the right careers and the right life partners for ourselves... funny how we used to talk about uni and boyfriends and girlfriends stuffs in the past when we met up for gatherings. it dawned upon us that we have all moved along in our lives... and have grown older. too bad, kiat was in india for business trip... and hui had to meet her bf. but we all had a great time just catching up with each other. sometimes you don't need to meet your good friends very often to know that they would be always there for you whenever you need a shoulder to cry on.
saturday was spent with asto and shan... met jean coincidentally at orchard. i've been wanting to call her all these while and it was just great to bump into her again. she's looking good as before and we promised each other we need to catch up over dinner soon. our so-called dinner date was postponed over several occasions and we shouldn't miss each other anymore! ;) had a great time just hanging around with asto and shan... shopping around, having random chats about everything - great company. our night didn't end until 4am sunday morning. oops. time to sleep!
i spent sunday with sheryl. i've been wanting to meet her since chinese new year! wow. that sounds long! the cuzzie talk was pretty long and good one. i hope she is feeling better after our little conversation. and this cuzin of mine is just amazing. it's difficult to describe the rapport we have between us, but i just feel emotionally recharged everytime i speak to her. i guess my conversation with her has driven me to make my decision to book my air ticket to london.
i've been deliberating for the longest time, whether i should fly over to london end of the year. travelling in europe is expensive. but ultimately, i do know what i want all these while. i have been dreaming of touring europe... and best with a loved one. and now, my only goal is to tighten my purse strings for the next few months or so. and yes, in 83 days time, i'll be off on a 20-day trip to the UK.
for those who want to pass over anything to adr, let me know? :)
~gracie left a note at 1:07 pm
Monday, September 24, 2007
smile - gerberasi am beginning to adopt a habit of buying nice brightly coloured flowers for my office table. they are de-stressers that sit on my table. they give me smiles. they cheer me up loads.
today i bought gerberas. they aren't as pretty as sunflowers... but still, God's creation :)
~gracie left a note at 2:16 pm
Friday, September 21, 2007
the days seem to have passed really slowly... sometimes, when i think about the length of time adr would be away from sg, it just makes me wonder how am i going to wait? but i guess with busyness at work and all, time may just swift past pretty quickly.
i've been doing well these days... sleeping better and finding new things to keep my mind occupied each day. my parents are away and there is the laundry to wash, the toilets to clean and the mailbox to clear... mundane stuff. and yes, i'm back to my tv-watching and emailing and blogging...and webcam-ing with adr every now and then.
work's been piling up!! a lot of major events coming... and i just can't breathe as i think about the horrendous amount of workload. i realised after spending 6weeks at this office, that i'm an utter loser in terms of banking and finance and excel spreadsheets and most importantly, $$$$$. i look at figures and my eyes get crossed immediately. i have been trying and it's been a steep mountain to climb. i've been making mistakes... so many!
well, if there were no mistakes, we'd never learn? and i guess with time, i realised my individual strength and weaknesses. and definitely, doing excel spreadsheets everyday is something i've not grown to get used to. and having a boss who is so systematic in solving problems with excel spreadsheets just make me marvel at the usefulness of spreadsheets!!! and yeah, you'd realise, if you know me enough... i'm better at drawings, colours and pictures than figures. oh well.. we all learn, don't we? :)
i'm so glad it's weekend.
i need a solid break and a good rest from stressful work here at office.
-.- tired.
~gracie left a note at 6:15 pm
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
farewell at changi - 16 sepblogging this entry was tough yesterday. i've been missing adr heaps and every thought of him would just make me cry. i guess im a little better today and have decided to blog about sunday night's farewell at the airport.
just read shan's blog and she said, gracie's really strong. honestly, no... i realised how much a cry baby i have been recently. been crying heaps since sunday, with every little thought of him and the things he said before he left. i feel superbly touched, when he took every effort to make sure i was well taken care of by his besties... and perhaps at the airport, i was too numbed by my own emotions. i was just trying to focus on the moments and not thinking too much about what was to come. and i have always been rehearsing in my mind how it would be at the airport and i've always reminded myself that i shouldn't flood the airport... cos' once i start, everyone will join in the crying session.
it was funny how 3fps tried to crack a cold joke. rainer told linus, in a blinking of an eye, he'd be back! linus tried to BLINK-WINK many times, opened his eyes and said to rainer, adr is still not back! rainer said, aiya you din try hard enough..! try try again? that made me smile, even though my tears were almost at the corner of my eyes. i held back my tears until i got home. came back to an empty house and started tearing so much.
i'm doing better today. been able to finally see adr online and spoke to him over skype. yes, it was just great to be able to see him... to talk to him. with every new day, it will get better. i hope time will swift past, as it always does.
10months to meeting my deariee...so long!
~gracie left a note at 10:43 pm
Monday, September 17, 2007
pic above: gracie's office table
tulips are there to cheer you up. when i'm not around, do remember to smile :)i brought the bouquet of tulips to office today. arranged them in a vase and they are so pretty! im missing him terribly. as i recalled his words of love uttered before he left for the UK, i just couldn't help but sat at my desk and sobbed.
i wish time could just fly in days to come.
can you fast forward time pls?
~gracie left a note at 1:38 pm
Friday, September 14, 2007
gracie's lifeif you are wondering how gracie is doing, she is good... just too busy to blog lately. work's piling at office and it's a terrible feeling to have when you know you are not in the driver's seat in meeting the datelines and demands of work. im learning and there's more to learn. i can't help but feel im lousy at times, but i guess i'd just have to try harder and move on with everything else. there is always a higher mountain to climb; and it isnt the best time to give up when ive merely just started.
work aside, i've been spending many beautiful moments with my beloved. oh, last weekend was good. we took turns to keep each other company. he came for little sarah's bday party at my cousin's place and i went for his farewell gatherings and shopping trips. we missed little aaron's bday party, as there were too many gatherings and parties to go over the weekend. and we went to ncc on sunday - ps prince told us of the great news and he spoke of casting our cares upon God and receiving godly rest. it's ever so difficult sometimes to trust in His mighty Hand, to work wonders in our lives. and sometimes, it's too unbelievable that miracles do happen, but God is good all the time. and He's been good to me...
and i offered to cook dinner once this week and well, as usual, im bad at cooking :p i've always thought it to be an authentic shanghainese or cantonese dish which he has never tried - my special bait to lure him back to singapore. but i guess my cooking wouldn't be compared to a bigger thing that would get him back in time next year - F1 race in singapore. boo! :) hee. okay okay, i agree. F1 car racing in singapore is definitely something to look forward to next year.
my parents are flying off to china on the same day as adr. that would mean, im pretty much left on my own without loved ones except my brother for the next 2 weeks or more. but i've been receiving a lot of girl friend invites to hang out next week. a lot of things to catch up on as well... washing, cleaning and taking care of the house when the King and Queen of the house arent around. and of course, that includes making sure my baby brother comes home in time...
the weekend is going to fly past really quickly... but i just wished time would stop for me.
~gracie left a note at 8:38 am
Friday, September 07, 2007
Rants
i haven't been blogging since last friday, i think. so many things are simultaneously happening that's worth blogging, but i just don't know where to begin. there are some things that would go into too much of personal details which sometimes need to be siphoned out of the blog content - and that could make blogging rather tiring.
perhaps much of which is my refusal to accept that time is flying so quickly. adr is leaving for bristol in about a week's time and i've been trying to spend as much time as i can with him lately.
i know i'm going to miss him a lot, and his physical presence in singapore. yet, i believe distance does makes the heart fonder and hopefully, we will be drawn closer in getting to know each other in a different way from a geographical distance. i know that there are just some friendships that would be so special - that no matter where you be, no matter how long a break you might not be in touch with or no matter how long you don't see each other - you would still stick as close when you meet again. and if this is the kind of friendship i have been developing with adr, then im sure there is no fear. and i believe that such distance is a test of patience, friendship telepathy, mutual understanding and communication.
some skeptics have said that rs dont last over distance because they hold fast to their theory: out of sight, out of mind. but i believe that if we were to constantly place each other in the corners of our hearts and keep in touch using the latest communicative technologies like webcams, msn, skype, blogs, emails, all that distance wouldn't matter afterall.
i've been also thinking about my holiday plans to london to visit adr end of the year. it would be white christmas over at the other end of the world - a place where i've never been to. i've always wanted to travel and see the other places and understand a different culture and lifestyle. even though it will always take me extra challenging when it comes to cold weathers. haha, if u know me, i hate shivering cold winters. i guess it would just be lovely to spend christmas in an extraordinary way with a loved one next to a fireplace. but flying to europe is pretty costly. so much to save up on! i'd love to go.. really.. i do hope i could save up enough. if not, i'd have to shelf the plan till next year. aww...
i went to see the doctor on monday as i've been having a serious sore throat over the weekend. i never thought it was so bad until i went to take a Q at the doctors. doc said i have a serious throat infection - 3 ulcers in my throat. can you imagine how torturing it is to drink water, eat or even swallow? disgustingly painful. and i was down with flu too, think i caught a chill from the bad weather lately. and so, i was on MC for a day. i think what made falling sick a blessing was that TLC that adr showered me through the day. medicine made me drowsy and for the first time, i didnt wish to talk to anyone or for that matter, open my mouth. it just hurts! in times like these, i am just pretty thankful for the best invention in the world - MSN and email and internet!
i've been hooked onto facebook lately. seriously addictive. i actually joined facebook long time ago, but got pretty frustrated with its website interface and navigation - so i left it dormant for a long while. got back up again cos adr added me one fine sunday night and we both started adding more applications and more friends. i wouldn't have imagined i would be THAT hooked up by it, since it could be rather cumbersome to go on facebook every time to feed your pet, pat other people's pets, earn points to buy flowers and fishies for your friends, do mass superpokes or even just to add a friend. but the matter of fact is, i got hooked by it. i'd find myself logging on to office mail every morning and then to facebook to check out the newest updates. i guess i'll go there quite often, usually in the sleepy afternoons to keep myself awake. there are just too many things to explore up there... you should try it if you've not signed up!
and i'm glad it's friday today. many many activities to look forward to this weekend. lots of farewell parties, birthday parties for my godson and niece, dinners to attend... family and friends gatherings i'd say. will take lots of pictures.... :) and will blog more soon.
~gracie left a note at 8:48 am
i spent some time at the beach, sunny sentosa over the weekend. it was just revitalising to retreat to the beach - to listen to the crashing waves at shore and to soak in the scorching heat and sunshine. had slabs of sunscreen on but i think i got a lil' tanned... :) it was great to be back on bikinis again after sucha long while.
pic above: gracie's office table