May 5, the battle is on! time to struggle through the most difficult time of the semester! it's assignment month, i call it. i have one 4000-word SCY essay to hand in next week, 2 3500-word history essays the following week, 1 2000-word SWK essay and 1 video interview with a 'client'. it's extreeeemly challenging this semester and i'm finding it difficult to cope at times.

recently, i'm focussing hard on a social psych project done on uni students to try and understand why students choose to come to uni at this point in their life and how that affects their performance in uni. very challenging but fun! i gota interview one of my friends and woh! there's alot of "gold" in his responses, which are so useful for my research project! from this project, i have also begun to understand myself as a student much more: my motivations to study at uni and how i can effectively push myself to study harder. indeed, i find myself intrinsically motivated.....very interested in learning and exploring more and i'm just very keen in struggling through that process of learning. i emerge as a better learned person, i think! that's why, even though i complain a lot about the stress i've to go through this month, i'm at the same time enjoying what i'm doing too! it's difficult to reconcile these two factors. well, i know it's worth the effort!

my tutors give me lots of golden advices and encouragement too....that really cheers me on! jane told me today: "Gracie, i know you are capable in writing a good essay! let's work on writing the best essay and i'll try to help you achieve that." whoh!!~ that's sucha comforting statement to me! i just hope i don't disappoint my tutor this sem.....and i really wana very much get the HD.....i really want to....