Oct26, my exams are over!!! 1 more assignment to do before i bid goodbye to monash university with *fingers-crossed*! hee..=p well, somehow my life has been revolving around library, books, stacks of notes and exams! i find myself studying alot, eating little and sleeping at extraordinarily weird hrs. there were times when i would even ask myself: 'hey, am i a nerd? a bookworm or what?!?' i don't want to be a nerd, do i have a choice? hmm...

i got my hsy essay back yesterday....and i was so contented to see that it was a B++! i'd been so worried...so anxious over this assignment because i was very positive that i didn't answer the question well. there were so many loopholes in my analysis and i knew that i didn't hand in as perfect a piece of work as i had wanted to. and when i was collecting my assignment from the History Office, i was well prepared to see a B- or even a C. Paul commented that he didn't agree with alot of things i wrote in my essay, but he was really impressed at how much i tried to link theories together and the amount of reading i did shown by my long reference list! =) so, i really thank God that it was a B++, in fact, it's a pretty good Distinction mark actually!~with this grade, i'm still hopeful for a HD+ in my final hsy grade....!=p great! i don't feel that i let myself down afterall....that's kinda joy of my day!

and yes, the exams yesterday was kinda a breeze for me. all exam hints given 2 weeks ago came out as usual....no surprises at all! i'm truly glad that 2 of the 5 questions were mathematical formulae derivations, so it was pretty much solving the equations and minimal explanations of economics! =) and i guess this is ever my first exam which i have seriously allocated enough time to answer all the questions in the exam paper! just as i finished my last word and full-stop, the examiner shouted: times up! phew~ glad that my only exam of the year...my final exam in my academic life is now over! i know i've done my best, the rest i'd leave to the markers to decide!

you know? i walked out of the exam hall yesterday feeling so tired...so brain-dead...so reluctant to say a single word...i just knew i needed water and i needed so much to go to the toilet~! and the most unexpected thing happened! unknowingly, i walked into the Male Toilet! ahhhhh.....!!! when i rushed out of the Gents, a group of guys walking towards the Gents looked at me with such curious eyes!! *blush* man! that was so-so-so embarassing!!! "sorry", i said. imagine how bad it must have felt!! you guys must be laughing really hard now...! but you guys must understand ok...my brain isn't working too normally after exams!!! that's my only excuse for intruding into the privacy of the male restroom....=).

oh well, i'm currently working on my final assignment on divorce culture in Australia and US. it's an intriguing topic which has led me consider so much about marriage, about cohabitation, about commitment and individualism. some questions remain unanswered: why are so many people still getting married in an age of rampant divorce? why is there such a strong faith in the marriage institution? is it a belief in commitment through religion/rites and rituals, marriage ideals or socialisation, which have inbued into people the notion of the needs of being married? that one day, you will be married to your princess of your dreams or prince charming?

hmm...something to think about!~