Nov 9, yes! 36 days more to home sweet home. my heart is always filled with mixed feelings whenever it's time to say goodbye to old friends and leaving a place i call 'home'. 3 years ago i felt that excitement about coming over to melb. today, i'm feeling the same way about going back singapore. it's always a struggle...always.

now that i'm preparing to fly home, there's a strong sense of homesickness surging in me. i really long to be home...to taste the good food...to speak the 'rojak' singrish...to smell the air of asian culture and to be with my family and friends! can't help but sing:

'this is home, truly, where i know i must be
where my dreams wait for me
where the river always flows
this is home, surely, as my senses tell me
this is where i won't be alone
for this is where i know i'm home'

but at the same time, i've gotten used to what i call, the australian lifestyle. it's going to uni everyday, meeting friends for lunch, going for a jog (sometimes with joel? =p), cooking dinner and spending time chilling out in front of the tv watching Australian idol or even Home and Away. on friday nights, gary will come over to pick me up for caregroups. saturdays are spent at church while sundays are for laundry, housekeeping and shopping. it's just the freedom to do whatever things and go places whenever and wherever i want. and friends too, got really close to ppl here whilst lost contact with ppl in singapore. somehow, going home seems to be a brand new beginning for me again...it's a changing lifestyle.

as i look back, it seems like time really flies. it wasn't too long ago when i first said goodbye at changi airport to my friends. now, 3 years have gone by and it's time to make a big step into a new world: the working world. will i undergo another chameleon change? will circumstances affect the way i see things in a new way? what is my future going to be? what is my direction in life? where's my compass point? there's so much uncertainties in life that i lose hope in expecting my plans to be worked out as i wanted them to be. in order to know what will happen, just gota be patient...=)