28 March 2005

i cried so much today. i thought i was strong. however, as i walked around his coffin to see him for the last time, i just couldn't help but cried. the pain of losing a good friend was just overwhelmingly unbearable. an immense sadness surged within my heart. bitterness lingered as i remembered how we were supposed to meet for lunch today. i would never have imagined myself meeting my good friend in his coffin instead. never regretted telling him how i feel before he left singapore. however, as i looked at benny for the last time, i wished he heard these words i whispered in my heart:

benny, i'm not late today. i remember promising you not to be late and i'm not late in this final meeting with you. i'm missing you alot now. even though i may not see you again, i will always keep you in my heart. yes, you often said that the good things in life are never there to stay for long and we need to treasure every minute of good time. i wana let you know that i really cherish you as my friend, alot. i never regretted knowing you and really appreciate your presence in my life for the past 2 weeks. you brought sunshine into my life and you made me feel happy once more. i do treasure every minute i have with you. i just wished i could spend the rest of my days knowing you, but i know that our shortlived friendship is more than enough to leave a very deep footprint in my life. sleep well, benny...i will miss you....i truly will.