31 March 2004

it's been a month since i started at nas. it's been a journey...so far, so good! haven't gotten scolding from mr pitt yet! that's a good thing for now! hee. well, sometimes i just feel that even though i'm doing something i'm so interested in, everyday's administrative duties just tire me down at times. to cope with the stress of overwhelming datelines is a daily chore which inevitably adds burden on my shoulders. it really prevents me from enjoying the research work on world war two japanese occupation topic.

work place has never been the same since benny left. today i was up at AV lab and i saw the table where he used to do his AV documentation. i used to walk pass him and he'd give me a grin. missed that grin :) now. really missed him so much today, but work and datelines just kept my mind busy all the time. his death really left a deep impact in the way i look at life, work and people around me. life has always been of regrets for me until i met him. i remember that he once told me that we may not have the best things in life the way we want them to be, but we can always make the best out of it. as we don't have eternity to do all the things we love to, it's always good to stop, ponder and appreciate the little things we have in life.

everyday as i step into office, i'm reminded of how short life can be. i still miss him alot...wish i could go lunching with him again. i guess, to look at it from another perspective, it teaches me to cherish more the loved ones i have around me. i promise myself that i will never miss any opportunity to bring smiles to people...to meet them for lunch and to spend quality time with good friends around. yes, tomorrow, i'm lunching with claire...great to have found another aquaintance at work! :)