11 may 2005

stress is building up at work. always squeeze my eyes every morning and say a quick little prayer before i start a brand new day: 'God, pls help me through today! so much to do, so much to think about...pls watch over me and give me the wisdom to do things right." sometimes, it feels like stepping on time-bomb zone each time i step into office. you'd never know when the Director would just appear behind and shout at you, sometimes for no reasons!? sometimes inevitably i find myself counting down the number of hours spent at office! despite having so much to do, yet i just yearn to get out of office as early as i can. i seriously need a break soon...i can't take it any longer~ physically drained and mentally tired.

coincidentally bumped into some friends near my work place, City Hall area/Fort Canning Hill. their very first lines were: "hey, you've changed so much~you're grown up now..." *have i...really?* another friend commented something which i found was ridiculously funny: "hey you look like Fann Wong from afar!" *what duh...?* even though subconsciously her statement has caused my head to swell a little (okok...to be frank, felt so high up in the air!!), but i do know that's just a flattery! perhaps our hairstyle may be similar, but generally speaking, we are miles apart!!!

yes, back to the point: undoubtedly, settling back into the Singaporean lifestyle entails changes. been changing the way i dress, my personality, my lifestyle patterns, the way i look at many aspects of life and of cos, been undertaking more financial burdens and responsibilies at home. perhaps such changes have sculptured another 'gracie' as a result. hopefully, this new 'gracie' is of a much refined and grown-up version of me (i hope!) as compared to the 'gracie' who left for australia 3 years ago.