8 may 2005

been feeling fragile-hearted today. didn't know why but tears just flowed from my eyes when boon asked gently just now, 'why do u feel alienated, my sister?' my soul rained instantaneously.

shared with him about what has been happening...tears just fell as i typed. "don't do anything silly ok? my friend's friend committed suicide recently." he said. "well", i replied, "no, i treasure life alot. i know how much it hurts when i heard that one of my close friends died in a rd accident recently. so much loss, so much pain since i came back." tears flowed as i cried out from my heart: "pls teach me how to live on..."

i really appreciated every encouraging word he said: to look upon Him and live on. what made me smiled was his repeated line: "you are such a nice girl!" well, being a nice girl doesn't guarantee no pain in any r.s, isn't it?!