July 6

finally, i'm online again! my comp has been down for ages! haven't had time to fix it?! even if i do, i don't really know how to? my cpu fan stopped and my comp is filled with virus. and yes, even i'm sick. the doc gave me 2 days mc....down with fever and bad flu! caught this viral infection from a few people last weekend. plus i have been having a low immune sysytem, with less sleep and dehydration during work. i seriously couldn't move or do a single thing yesterday. i was really sick, maybe had strong medicine.

so much has happened over the past months. haven't had time to really update. perhaps life just keeps moving on when there isn't a time to sit down and really reflect upon life. i just dread going work! seriously do....and guess it's the stress that is attached to the office environment. just can't help but keep on moving!? life keeps going, time keeps ticking and my work keeps on piling up! aghhh~

i'm going on a filming trip with my Director and some other colleagues this weekend. i hate to go as i know i'll be working through weekend. i hate doing that as i lose a day when i can really concentrate in worshipping God and being close to Him. what should i do? tried to explain to the Management but they just practically force ppl to do things which could be beyond our limits at times. sometimes i just feel i can't breathe...God, give me strength to carry on. it's going to be a demanding trip this weekend, as we travel to the east and west coasts of Malay Peninsular to shoot the landing spots of the Japanese when they attacked in JaN 1942. hopefully i would be well enough to survive through the trip and not be sick. i don't want to be sick......no, i don't want!