Matured, Muscular & Macho
Haven't seen him for a long time. i remembered the very last occasion i met him was at his dad's funeral. his face then revealed pain and agony over his dad's passing, but also that longing for someone to sit by to listen to him. before i left, he gestured to me to ask me over. he whispered to me softly asking me to meet his mum. i didn't know what to say, but just comforted his mom saying, 'aunty pls take care'. even though there was silence between us, i knew from his eyes that he really wished someone was there for him during that critical period of time. i know, because he was my ex for a period of time. we were close friends then, very good friends in fact. it was funny how we got together. well, those were the innocent days.

Today, i received an sms from my buddy. she told me she bumped into him just today. well, singapore is a small place and yes, you often meet people along the streets all the time. and it's incidents like these when it takes courage to say: hey hi! are you so-and-so? especially when you haven't met for ages and when you aren't sure if you have recognised the person correctly. and yes, my buddy said he's grown more matured, muscular and macho as compared to before! [he's very good looking many years ago! man! i can't imagine now!!) he asked my buddy how i am doing and i'm surprised he still remembers my hs number! man! (am i heartless or forgetful or what??!! can't even remember his number!) anyway, i'm thankful that God has been taking care of him all these while! no matter where he is, i know God is watching over him.

This little incident brings me back to the sweet memories of the good old past! oh, that was just sucha long time ago. it's good that i'm only remembering the good things, the sweet memories and the places we visited. remembered how we made sandwiches for each other, because we didn't have enough money to go to restaurants. those were sweet moments which millionaires can't buy. it's never the same now that i have started earning....always remembered how my mum used to nag: "dont start gettin serious in relationships until you are financially stable!" to me, there may be an element of truth in there as you may be more stable in selection for future partner when you are older. but i guess when you start earning, you tend to start dating at high class restaurants and have expensive dinners. i realised that i have stopped doing those lovey-dovey things which i used to do anymore. no longer would i spend time to make cards, cook desserts and sandwiches, think of cheap nice places to go.....all these things? gone with the wind! well, i guess im just a simple girl who doesn't want to sit in high class restaurants all the time, having well-served 10 course dinner. haha...weird eh??~