Good Friday

every Good Friday, i'm reminded of deaths. the death of Christ on the cross and deaths of good pals and loved ones. coincidentally, it's also the QingMing festival too. would be bringing flowers to my yeye and mama's tombs soon. miss them lots. always dream of them whenever my life is gloomy. many thoughts flooded my mind recently, especially when i received news of the death of one of church member who suffered from lung cancer. sometimes we might ask: why? why is it happening to people around us? why are some ppl dying so young? why is life so fragile?

i've learnt to treasure life very much. i've learnt to appreciate the little things and simplicity of life everyday for you never know when it would be the last. im once again reminded of the death of benny. i can't help, but remember my dearest friend. he passed away in an accident on Good Friday last year. can't forget how i first met him. and will forever remember his sincere friendship. i remembered saying these words in my heart to him when i last saw him in his coffin at his funeral:

benny, i'm not late today. i remember promising you not to be late and i'm not late in this final meeting with you. i'm missing you alot now. even though i may not see you again, i will always keep you in my heart. yes, you often said that the good things in life are never there to stay for long and we need to treasure every minute of good time. i wana let you know that i really cherish you as my friend, alot. i never regretted knowing you and really appreciate your presence in my life for the past 2 weeks. you brought sunshine into my life and you made me feel happy once more. i do treasure every minute i have with you. i just wished i could spend the rest of my days knowing you, but i know that our shortlived friendship is more than enough to leave a very deep footprint in my life. sleep well, benny...i will miss you....i truly will.

my last words on sms to benny was: 'take care always and i will miss ya. see you on monday at lunch ok?' and yes, whenever i say 'take care' to people i care about, these 2 words meant so much to me. i hope those who received those words from me will cherish them as much as i do. perhaps the loss of benny has made me realised how important it is to appreciate and affirm the friendship/ relationship everyday. don't take life for granted. don't take the kindness of people around you for granted. you may not have the chance to say thankyou or sorry ever again...so don't procrastinate when you have something which you really wana do or say.