Wednesday, July 12, 2006
never regret...was chatting with elmo today about relationships. he sent me this story over hotmail. when i read it, i felt like crying. it reminded me so much so much of benny *tears* never had a chance to say a proper goodbye and he left.
i blamed myself for postponing my lunch dates with ben again and again, thinking i could have lunch with him again. but no, never have another chance anymore. he seemed to have predicted his own death. he said to me: "don't miss me when i go" and that "life is short, so treasure every minute of it". i'm glad, still very glad that i told ben that "i will miss you" and reassured our friendship before he passed away. and the fact of the matter is, i still missed him. missed those moments when we would meet up for dessert at northpoint. missed those moments when he would just complaint about work over sms, when we were just a minute away from each other. but i guess God has a purpose in everything that has happened. and for those who are pondering on whether to tell your loved ones you treasure them a lot, seize the opportunity whenever given so. don't wait till the cows come home and procrastinate. most of all, don't regret!
有那么一对情侣.女孩很漂亮,非常善解人意,偶尔时不时出些坏点子耍耍男孩.男孩很聪明,也很懂事,最主要的一点.幽默感很强.总能在2个人相处中找到可以逗女孩发笑的方式.女孩很喜欢男孩这种乐天派的心情. 他们一直相处不错, 女孩对男孩的感觉,淡淡的,说男孩象自己的亲人.
男孩对女孩爱甚深,非常非常在乎她.所以每当吵架的时候,男孩都会说是自己不好,自己的错.即使有时候真的不怪他的时候,他也这么说.他不想让女孩生气. 就这样过了5年,男孩仍然非常爱女孩,象当初一样. 有一个周末,女孩出门办事,男孩本来打算去找女孩,但是一听说她有事,就打消了这个念头.他在家里呆了一天,他没有联系女孩,他觉得女孩一直在忙,自己不好去打扰他.
谁知女孩在忙的时候,还想着男孩,可是一天没有接到男孩的消息,她很生气.晚上回家后,发了条信息给男孩,话说得很重.甚至提到了分手.当时是晚上12点. 男孩心急如焚,打女孩手机,连续打了3次,都给挂断了.打家里电话没人接,猜想是女孩把电话线拔了.男孩抓起衣服就出门了,他要去女孩家.当时是12点25.
女孩在12点40的时候又接到了男孩的电话,从手机打来的,她又给挂断了. 一夜无话.男孩没有再给女孩打电话. 第 2天,女孩接到男孩母亲的电话,电话那边声泪俱下.男孩昨晚出了车祸.警方说是车速过快导致刹车不急,撞到了一辆坏在半路的大货车.救护车到的时候,人已经不行了. 女孩心痛到哭不出来,可是再后悔也没有用了.她只能从点滴的回忆中来怀念男孩带给她的欢乐和幸福.
女孩强忍悲痛来到了事故车停车场,她想看看男孩呆过的最后的地方.车已经撞得完全不成样子.方向盘上,仪表盘上,还沾有男孩的血迹. 男孩的母亲把男孩当时身上的遗物给了女孩,钱包,手表,还有那部沾满了男孩鲜血的手机.女孩翻开钱包,里面有她的照片,血渍浸透了大半张. 当女孩拿起男孩的手表的时候,赫然发现,手表的指针停在12点35分附近.
女孩瞬间明白了,男孩在出事后还用最后一丝力气给她打电话,而她自己却因为还在堵气没有接.男孩再也没有力气去拨第2遍电话了,他带着对女孩的无限眷恋和内疚走了. 女孩永远不知道,男孩想和她说的最后一句话是什么.女孩也明白,不会再有人会比这个男孩,更爱她了！
爱上一个人的9个预兆
1.当你正在忙时，却把手机开著，等著她/他的短信..你已经爱上她/他了
2.如果你喜欢和她/他两个人单独漫步..你已经爱上她/他了
3.当你和她/他在一起时，你会假装不注意他，但是当她离/他开你的视线时，你会急著寻找她/他...你已经爱上她了
4.当她/他受伤或生病时，你会很关心她，替她/他著急..你已经爱上他了
5.当她/他和别人要好时，你会感到吃不知其味...你已经爱上她了
6.当你看到她/他那甜美的笑时，你的嘴角会扬起一丝得意的笑..你已经爱上她/了.
7.当你看到这篇文章时，心里想到某个人
8.当你看到这篇文章后，一辈子会有人爱，有人疼，有人陪，有人关心，有人照顾！！牋牋
9. 当你回帖后这一切都会变成现实
~gracie left a note at 5:37 pm
Sunday, July 09, 2006
new bedding and bedroom decorhave been searching for new decor ideas on the net. if only i could ask ron for ideas! need him man! anyway, what's a bedroom without a bed? :) and i'm so in love with these beds...oh! how i wish my room has the space for a queen-sized bed!
My Fav - Love the Red:
The Gothic:
The Tropical:
The Country:
~gracie left a note at 11:49 pm
new bedroom?!renovations, dust and more furnishings undone - been sleeping in a dusty room for the past weeks. disgusting, cos i haven't been able to really enjoy good sleep. and thanks to all the renovations, i was called a 'panda' by teck. yes, i'm still in need of sleep, sigh~
been planning the interior decor of my room for the past months. i wanted a complete change. i wanted a new room all to myself. and i know my dream is fulfilled today. spent my weekend repainting my room and rearranging the furniture in a new fashion. decided on the colour theme of my room to be deep blue, red and black. simply love it! now i'm left with curtains and bedsheets! and of cos, re-organising my stuff in the respective cupboards and shelves. hoping to create a cosy room for myself so that i will be able to rest and relax in a space all to myself. haven't had such 'feel' since melbourne days. it feels so good now to just step into the room and have the entire space to myself! it's a kinda freedom that i was searching for - now i've found it!
my new room look-alike:
and yeah - not to forget, will be sending my Pooh for a bath soon. he's really dirty and he really needs a shower. for all those who don't know, Pooh's my bf. been neglecting him all these while, ever since i flew him back from melbourne. and will be thinking of getting a laptop soon! cos' have a pc in my small room is taking up loads of space! plus my old Dell comp is breaking down anytime! considering the fact that it's running only on 256MB now. disgustingly slow~!
there's just so much more to do. i wish i could have more time to myself so that i could make my private space my very own. i guess i'm beginning to spend more of my personal time in my room now. oh!~ i just love my own room! hey, my besties!! you are welcomed to come over to have a girls' night in my room! ;)
~gracie left a note at 10:39 pm
Thursday, July 06, 2006
face it!!finally had a chance to grab a seat on the bus this morning. took the opportunity to read my book: Travelling Light by Max Lucado. Max is a romantic writer. that's why i love his chapters. every sentence sounds so 'musical' and they sing into my ears. feel that reading his book is a breeze. not a very profound book, but i just simply love his metaphors and illustrations. somehow whenever i see its cover, i can't resist opening up to read at least 1 chapter. it's like unfolding a wrapped up present. don't know what's inside, but know deep inside there's some goodies to see!
and so yes~ opened up the page where my bookmark was and it says: The Burden of Grave. eww - so morbid. "this topic doesn't really looks appealing" i told myself, but i started reading it anyway. however, as i continued reading, something struck me: "We all have to face it. In a life marked by doctor appointments, dentist appointments and school appointments, there is one appointment that none of us will miss, the appointment with death. Everyone must die, even those who eat right and take their vitamins."
but the good news of it all is: God has prepared a better place and He will personally return and take us home one day. "He does not delegate this task to anyone else. He may send missionaries to teach you, angels to protect you, teachers to guide you, singers to inspire you and physicians to heal you, but he sends no one to take you. He reserves this job for himself." not trying to preach here, but i just find these words so comforting. to everyone, death is a certainty. but where is hope? you can find the answer in Christianity.
at that moment, as the bus journey continued and as i looked out of the window, i felt that life's a journey. if the bus were to crash and i die today, would i have any regrets? many ppl say that i'm always dwelling on those *choy choy* touchwood topics, but really~ seriously death is part of life. everyone dies one day. if today i'm on my death bed, what would i be thinking?
yes - i thought over and there are so many regrets. that was not able to spend enuf time with loved ones. i have not assured them of my love for them. i have not found answers to some important life's questions. perhaps with the extra breath that i have everyday, i should live life without regrets. to know that at the end of it all, i have fought a good fight and i have run a great race! that i have nothing else that i have not done and im happy with all that i have done. life is so short; shouldn't we just treasure every moment to the fullest?
~gracie left a note at 11:18 pm
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
the simplicities of lifewoke up this morning with a bad headache. needed more sleep. superbly tired. think the lethargy was accumulated. ever since the start of renovations, i haven't been getting good sleep. sent a sms at 7.15am to al to inform that i wouldn't be going into office.
so good to sleep in. woke up 2 hours later than usual and i feel great! had the simplest breakfast. what topped it up was the milk chocolate ab bought me. it's my belated birthday present. haven't had such good choc in my entire life. Royce is the brand. had the rare chance to read newspapers and enjoyed the comics section as usual. went online to check my office mails and chat on msn. received some surprises on my blog and email from an unexpected friend on friendster. had a chance to have ramley burger for dinner tonight. wow!~feel so wonderful!
maybe it's little things like these that makes life special for me. took leave today to just stay home and slack. just needed time off to just enjoy the simplicities of life.
~gracie left a note at 9:51 pm
Monday, July 03, 2006
waiting for...waiting is the most arduous process, most difficult, most uncertain, most painful. it could be waiting for the bus or waiting for the best job offer you might be hoping for or perhaps waiting for the dream girl to say "Yes" to you.
it's most difficult and painful because you don't know when the next bus will come. it's even more stressful when you aren't sure if life is going to give you the answer at all. and most of all, you aren't sure if you would be able to accept the final answer when the waiting is over.
however, waiting is also a test of time. a test of patience and your willingness to hold on to what you truly believe in. it doesn't take into consideration your good looks or your riches. it's your heart that matters.
i'm saying this because i'm waiting. waiting for the right person to come along to brighten my life everyday. waiting for the right job to come by. do i want to continue waiting when i don't get my answers? do i still hold on to the hope of finding the best in life? can i still trust that the best has yet to come? will my wait find me real happiness at the very end?
so many questions but no answers.
~gracie left a note at 11:10 am
