meeting old 'flames', rekindling old fires
the weekend was spent meeting old memories. it was difficult. challenging because it was taking a step closer to history and bad traumatic past. it's digging the hidden fears that i have tried to bury down my soul for the past months. and having to struggle through those memories for the past few months was the most terrible thing. it's nightmares, it's an open wound, it's unwanted tears. and i told myself recently, if one day i could meet my fears again, talk about it as if it never happened, i know i'm completely healed.

today, as i write this, i know that i have moved on. i said goodbye to history. it's difficult, because i love history. im sentimental. i love to remember the past. yet, bad memories just choke and suffocate my soul. i have chosen to let go. and yes, today as i meet my old 'flames' for movies, i totally enjoyed my time with them. even though together, we talked about our past - yet, i felt relieved. i felt that the terrible things are now over. i'm glad i'm recovering.

to old 'flames': thankyou for everything. it's good to catchup once again. i hope things go well for all of us, no matter where we are. perhaps being in a place teach us life's lessons which we ought to learn. i'm sorry if i'd neglected you 2 for awhile. i needed time for healing. i know that things will only get better from today on.

to old memories: goodbye! i have decided to move on. i have decided to harden my heart and just let go of you. i know that old memories include the sweetest ones too. however, keeping these old memories will stop me from creating and remembering new ones. the old ones are gone, new ones have come.