The Purpose
been going for various meetings lately. i sat through mind boggling meetings where i had to take minutes of those visionaries casting their goals and directions for the education of the future. those unofficial gatherings where i met long-time friends who talked about their lives, their plans and their current business. and also those at church where ppl gather together to ask themselves what they want for our church youth ministry. and all these boils down to: what's the purpose?

perhaps all of us have consumed ourselves in this rat race of life. we find ourselves being tied down to the routines of life that we no longer ask ourselves: why? why are we doing this? it's just following a pattern of things and going through the motion. and after it all, we feel burnt out, tired and unrewarded.

been searching for a purpose in the things that i do and plan for. difficult at some occasions, because i find myself being trapped in traditions and routines and lifestyle preferences. it's no longer because i want to do it, but because it has always been a habit of doing so.

i want a change.
i want to grow.
i want to make a difference.
i want to learn.
i want to...

perhaps i'm just waiting for an opportunity. im also looking out for partners who have similar goals and passions whom i can work and share with. perhaps with a common goal and dream, there is direction and there is motivation to carry on. and i'm still searching for that purpose in my life at this moment. perhaps this takes time...
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it was LM's birthday yesterday. i can't remember when was my last time out at 1.00AM in the morning. celebrated her bday at a KTV with the rest of the guys. it wasn't so much the singing that brought me there at that hour. it's the friendship that we have had for the past 9years. long time. that speaks a lot about our age too ;)
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