I Can't Get Used To It!
i sat down with an ice blended Starbucks chocolate and a mango cheesecake. it was lunch for me today and it cost me $10.40. goodness. that's a decimal difference if i had lunch at school canteen. [perhaps yes, gracie shouldn't compare or complaint]. my first time sitting down alone in an uneasy environment. why uneasy? cars seemed to drive past faster. huge crowds of working adults rushing down the streets. for once, i noticed ang mohs too! and the place looked so much like Melbourne Central. as i observed the crowd from that little corner of Starbucks Cafe, i felt as if im an alien to this place. i seemed to be sticking out like a sore thumb.

maybe because im not used to dressing up today. why am i dressed so differently today? i glanced briefly at myself, as i compared that with the passer-bys: white collared top with formal black skirt. i looked more like im going to Supreme Court for a court hearing session later. no, i was at Robinsons Road for a job interview. i felt superbly uncomfortable. perhaps im too used to seeing students in jeans and t-shirts at school. it's suddenly a jump of environment. it's rising up to the occasion, which i found it quite difficult to adjust at first instance when i stepped out of the taxi.

well im not sure still, if this is really what it is meant to be for me. im still considering my options and hopefully, i will find the way i want to go soon. career paths are carved out, isn't it? perhaps i should take my youth as my advantage to grow and develop my own strengths. it isn't good to just stay in a comfy environment for too long, or it would mean stagnating and maintaining status quo.