Monday, July 16, 2007
At the Clinicfor the longest time, i've been procrastinating. but die die have to go today - it was my pre-employment medical examination. so what to do? go lor.
i hate going for such appointments because more often than not, the queue is pretty long. just have to wait, wait.. and do more waiting for your turn. you Q for xrays, then you Q to see the doc, you Q again to take your height and weight and eyesight... and you continue Q-ing. -_-
what freaked me out today wasn't the long Q. it was the needles and the doctor's un-pro-ness. i walked into the small little room and as usual, the doctor invited me to take my seat. he started fumbling over his stethoscope as he tried to check my lungs and heart beat. he told me to stop breathing as he listened through his stet. i almost got breathless, cos he took his own sweet time! and as i continued breathing, he said, can u stop breathing? this is so weird! i thought normally you don't need to stop breathing for the doc to listen thru the stet?
what's more worrying was when he said, i think i heard some weird noises from your heart. has any doctor told you about your heart problems? i looked at him with a blank face, huh? can you repeat? what heart problem? and he was like, okay nevermind. maybe you need to lie on the couch and i have to do further testing. after a second round, he then said, he must be hearing things and marked on my medical record sheet as everything normal. ah, what duh?
when i thought i could leave, he said it is time to do the blood test. i thought it was the normal pricking of the finger. no! he pulled out his long needle and i got even more freaked out. needles?! oh no. then he started with my left hand, trying to find the vein... then back to the right hand... then back to the left hand again... then back to the right hand... it was pretty scary as he held his needle while he tried to find my faint-looking green vein. when he finally did, he was like - "Ah-ha! i found it. i THINK it is here." oh man, when he said that, i felt that i'm just seriously the suay one today to have gotten myself such a horrigible doctor.
when it was time to leave the place, i was truly relieved. goodness. never wana see the doc again.
~gracie left a note at 9:55 pm
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Linus' bdayi attended one of the 4fps' 21st bday party ysday. pretty fun. never imagined i could enjoy myself so much at the party, even tho my initial sole purpose was to go over just to pass linus the prezzie on adr's behalf. i felt welcomed even though i ain't part of the imd group. everyone knows me by adr's gf... even so, i was included in all the party activities they did :) like
shan said, yes we played cherades - something that i wasnt very keen to play initially. we had great laughs too, especially with some actions which made us look seemingly silly.
one of the highlights of the night was presenting linus with the 7minute imd video clip done as a birthday prezzie by the imd group. i think glen was good in the way he edited the clip. we laughed our heads off. linus went around to hug all the imd people after he watched the clip and eventually made his short speech. he shared with the group that it was the best present he has received and most of all, the 3-year great friendship has been a blessing to him. tears* he was pretty emo last night - but in all good sense, he felt loved and appreciated. yay. the creative idea was from me :) *grin.
adr arrived at the party much later... but that really showed how much he cherished (is still cherishing! ;) ) the 4fps friendship. as the group watched the video yet again, we had our second rounds of laughter. i must say this bunch of kids (?) okay.. imds :) have bonded themselves together over the past years. thanks to all the chalets.. all the birthday parties.. all the farewell parties.. all the bbq sessions.. ALL at Aranda Country Club! -_- haa. i figured out that place will be a place where fond memories dwell eh?
~gracie left a note at 12:49 pm
Monday, July 09, 2007
It is sealed..the final decision is made. i have chosen to leave. it's honestly a very hard decision to make. i've never been so undecisive in my lifetime. i've been tossing over this matter for the longest time. since i've already made it, i will just move forward. i'll have to shoulder all responsibilities and consequences of the decision i have made.
as the song goes, i have decided... no turning back, no turning back.
~gracie left a note at 5:11 pm
Weekend Dilemmai feel so wanted. undeniably, i walked out of the Director's office feeling so good on friday. why? he counter proposed a perm position with a comparable attractive remuneration package just to make me stay in school. wow.
i've always enjoyed my stay in school. i've always wanted to work in school and be permanently placed in a working environment that allows me to grow and develop as a person. my bosses are so nice and i've always been waiting for this package all these while. BUT, the big but here is, i've already signed the letter of appointment with the other company. i've already decided to leave. the call to meet the Director after i tendered my resignation really came as a surprise.
it's really tempting just to say, alright i'll stay. it was almost at the tip of my tongue when he gave me that offer. at the end of the chat session at the director's office, i decided to ask for the weekend to weigh my options. and director sent me off with one word of wisdom, "Pray!" and yes, that was something that i so needed to do.
after a weekend of serious consideration, i thought i have already set my mind to leave. most people i have spoken to have given their viewpoints. leaving means better prospects, newer exposure and beginnings. now that i've spoken to my boss, i'm stucked again. she persuaded me to stay, elaborating on the kinda job scopes, exposure and opportunities for growth if i were to stay. i must say, she's really a good boss and it has been a blessing working under her for the past year and a half. so much of great exposure and experience has been given to me. and to think that im just a temp, i'm grateful for all those experiences.
now that the long awaited opportunity is set in front of me. im tempted to say yes. and to juggle that option against going to somewhere new to start all over, i'm seriously confused. there's just too much to think about. i'm trapped in a situation. only God knows how and where is the best for me.
God, can u give me an answer? teach me where i should go.
~gracie left a note at 11:12 am
Friday, July 06, 2007
The Great Singapore Sale..is almost over and i've yet to do my serious shopping. i tried to do so last night. i went home utterly disappointed with myself. spent so many hours just browsing, touring and trying, but went home without a bag. is it because of the GST hike? nope. perhaps the sale items are no longer attractive. or maybe i'm looking for the practical corporate wear which aren't found in the shops i browsed past yesterday.
~gracie left a note at 3:06 pm
Thursday, July 05, 2007
我好一点了...i've been urged by loved ones to see the doc. i've been suffering from loss of appetite and bloatedness for the past one week. thanks to gastric, i've loss weight. not good. really no choice. what to do? saw the doc yesterday. the Q at the clinic was horrendous. stepped into clinic at 7pm but never gota see the doc until 8.55pm. disgustingly long. i almost fainted at the clinic, suffering from the contracting gastric pains without dinner. when i finally saw the doc, it felt that the end was near. anyway, as usual i told the doc of all the symptoms i have had over the past one week. and his verdict, 你中毒了! poisoned? yar. the culprit was apparently the bottle of overnight 罗汉果 i left in my bag. i drank it only 12hours later. stupid me. i honestly didn't know that i couldn't leave it unchilled over many hours.well good news is, i'm feeling better today. medicine make miracles! my appetite is returning. and yes, i'm finally able to eat my food without feeling puky :) but a good lesson learnt: never drink overnight 凉茶!
~gracie left a note at 4:01 pm
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
1 Month's Noticenever have i written my resignation letter with such reluctance. i went through quite an amount of consideration before all decisions were made last week and yes, i have decided to leave for greener pastures ahead of me.
yesterday, i went down to the new place to sign my letter of appointment. as the HR person explained to me the clauses within the contract, my eyes beamed with anticipation as i looked at the $$ increase, the employee benefits and the other perks that would come along with the contract. the attractive perks seemed luring. and of course, i signed the contract eventually. i believe i didn't leave my current employment for just the perks. i choose to think that i'm leaving for the sake of career progression.
i've been in a comfortable 'emotional nursing home' for too long. i came in wounded. now that im fully recovered, i think it's appropriate time to leave for battle again. honestly, there is still this fear of getting wounded again. i may not foresee how good or bad life will treat me in the new working environment, but i know i just need to trust that God will lead the way. i know i may not get as nice bosses as i have right now, or be in partnership with good colleagues that work alongside with... just have to trust that all good things will come :)
~gracie left a note at 5:31 pm
"See a Doc la" -Emaili came early to work to check my office email. lo and behold, i receive an email with that phrase and i knew it wasn't a official one. the sender was asked by my dearest to "chaperon" me for breakfast and lunch. they deemed me as the most stubborn mule on earth, who refused to see the doctor to get my tummy and gastric checkup. anyway, i laughed pretty hard when i saw this:
See la.. dun listen la.. dun see doctor la.. u jialiat liao.. 2 choices.. see doc or u better eat properly.. hahaha..dun gimme the sian face n huh to me.. lol.. see it for yaself..
hahahaha...
不听话 我就。。。 *evil smile*
P/s: thanks girl. really feel touched by that email. it's great to be nagged once in awhile. hee.
~gracie left a note at 8:32 am
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
On the Move...
my manager told me that i've to move to another working location within the school. AGAIN. i don't know if being moved around is a good thing. moving means not only packing up all my
barang barang, leaving the familiar work space but also processing all the paperwork for the assets change, password locks, printer and cpu configurations. so cumbersome! :S yet, moving also means a major springcleaning session and a time to throw out old things, shred off all unnecessary documents and file back stuff that have been lying around.
pack.. pack.. pack.. so that's what i've been doing yesterday. i never knew i've accumulated so much junk over the past 1.5 years. toys, rubbish, gifts, paper, cds, files... i guess the move provided the impetus to start trashing old stuff and more old stuff. i threw out a lot of stuff, but ended up trolleying quite a few boxes of stuff to the new work space yesterday. hurhur.
went into the new work office this morning and i feel ultra lonely in that big place. it's a quiet spot, as compared to my previous place. isn't that good, some may say. well, if you are looking at tranquility being able to enhance work performance and less work surveillance. but perhaps, it's extraordinarily quiet. something that i might need time to get used to.
of cos, i've been given more chances to meet new colleagues recently, now that im seated at this new space. i gota know the new Teaching Assistant (TA) who started work yesterday. she being an ex student, would find every thing and everywhere in school familiar to her. we had lunch together and i find that i absolutely enjoy the process of making friends. oh well, perhaps it is just the informal and comfortable school environment we are in that allow friendships to bloom more readily than the corporate work environment.
i may be biased, but i think that may be one of the reasons why i prefer working in a school than at raffles place. rushing to work every morning feels different. now, i feel less burden on my shoulders everyday as i rush to work. and perhaps, i am able to let down all work worries every time i leave. or maybe, it is a mindset that i need to develop within me.
something to think about.
~gracie left a note at 10:32 am
Monday, July 02, 2007
Shopping Before GST Hike?it is too late. i wish i could walk down orchard road and shop till i drop before the GST hike kicked in yesterday. *exaggerated. on a serious note, the jacked up prices may become a deterrent in itself. or perhaps, it is just a matter of time when we get used to the price.
where was i? sick. fever. 38.4 degrees. boohoohoo. but i'm doing well now, thanks to the one, who nursed me till my fever left me :) still having gastric though.
~gracie left a note at 10:04 am
