first day of work
i couldn't sleep. duno if it's the excitement that got my adrenalin going or if it's the anxiety of the unknown. tossed and turned and barely caught a few hours of sleep.. the next minute i opened my eyes to alarm clock was 6.15am. yawn -.-

i knew that i couldn't afford to be late on my first day of work. rushed to the train station at 7am. why did i choose an office location so far away from home?! well~ what to do? sometimes we don't have the luxury to choose, do we?

while in the train, i pulled out "Tuesdays with Morrie" to read- an inspirational book which lm passed me. and yes, very quickly i sunk myself in the myriad of inspiring words of wisdom. and just this morning, i read:

"sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. and if you are ever going to have people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too - even when you're in the dark. even when you are falling."

how true is that... so appropriate as i start my new job today. sometimes it is difficult to trust some stranger person you come into contact with through your work relations. and people can be cunning and shrewd. you never want to land yourself in corporate politics shit, yet you wana be accepted in the working community that you're put in. somehow everyone puts on a fakish mask. however, relationships being so mutual will require some sincerity on both parties to make them work. and when you don't trust ppl, they won't trust u too.

as i soaked myself in those thoughts, i realised i'm just one stop away from my destination. i was supposed to get to work at 830am and i was still waiting for the bus at 8.15am. the bus crowd is so bad in the mornings... people here really elbow each other just to get up the bus. it seemed like i'm living in another part of the world, where the culture is so different from the north!

yes. i was late for work today. thankfully, it's orientation in the morning. all the newbees were gathered together in a seminar room where we were given a 2-hr briefing on all that we need to know about the institution and intranet stuff. the next minute i knew, i was left alone in my cubicle without supervision. my boss is on mc today.

i'm kinda free today... just trying to keep myself busy with reading of reports and information stored in the computer. and that's why here i am... updating my first half of my day here. it is only 2.28pm and i've got 3 more hours to go. boo.