farewell at changi - 16 sep
blogging this entry was tough yesterday. i've been missing adr heaps and every thought of him would just make me cry. i guess im a little better today and have decided to blog about sunday night's farewell at the airport.

just read shan's blog and she said, gracie's really strong. honestly, no... i realised how much a cry baby i have been recently. been crying heaps since sunday, with every little thought of him and the things he said before he left. i feel superbly touched, when he took every effort to make sure i was well taken care of by his besties... and perhaps at the airport, i was too numbed by my own emotions. i was just trying to focus on the moments and not thinking too much about what was to come. and i have always been rehearsing in my mind how it would be at the airport and i've always reminded myself that i shouldn't flood the airport... cos' once i start, everyone will join in the crying session.

it was funny how 3fps tried to crack a cold joke. rainer told linus, in a blinking of an eye, he'd be back! linus tried to BLINK-WINK many times, opened his eyes and said to rainer, adr is still not back! rainer said, aiya you din try hard enough..! try try again? that made me smile, even though my tears were almost at the corner of my eyes. i held back my tears until i got home. came back to an empty house and started tearing so much.

i'm doing better today. been able to finally see adr online and spoke to him over skype. yes, it was just great to be able to see him... to talk to him. with every new day, it will get better. i hope time will swift past, as it always does.

10months to meeting my deariee...so long!