disillusioned
i sat in a HQ meeting today. i got pretty inspired by all the big ra-ra discussed and next year's big plans and events and what not next year. i know it's gona be really exciting. media publicity. big time hoo-ha. i'd say, a big boom time. what made me feel a lil' disheartened was i think im never gona be part of it. boo.

to start with, my name was never in the HQ database. and with all the major events happening, i know as much as i would like to be involved in them, im guessing my boss wouldn't release me to HQ. ah - sad.

sometimes i truly wonder, what do i wana do with my life? where am i going? corporate comms?while many would say i've just merely started, i don't seem to see my way around things. if you ask me, i won't say i would look back in history and regret any decision i have made so far, because every step in life is a learning process isn't it?

i hope to see some light. it seems im hitting dead end next year. we will see. God will lead.